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So I cant really see much of a future for me right now. All i see is suffering! So much bullsh*t has gone on this week... I dont even know anymore! Tyler hasnt reached me yet. I dont know if he tried to but... Ugh. 
Not much else i can do but post this crappy journal on deviantart... I've been thinking and i've realized: If i dropped dead right here--right now-- would i have some reasons to be missed? I have like, no one who cares about me at this damn group home now. I fucking kissed a girl for the first time and i almost DIED. It was EWWWW. Thats how desperate i've become. I need help... I just dont know if i can go on like this! Its like im falling forever. The downward spiral is neverending... FUCK! Will i ever get out of this twister of hated and deranged emotions?!
Not much else i can do but post this crappy journal on deviantart... I've been thinking and i've realized: If i dropped dead right here--right now-- would i have some reasons to be missed? I have like, no one who cares about me at this damn group home now. I fucking kissed a girl for the first time and i almost DIED. It was EWWWW. Thats how desperate i've become. I need help... I just dont know if i can go on like this! Its like im falling forever. The downward spiral is neverending... FUCK! Will i ever get out of this twister of hated and deranged emotions?!
NOT DEAD
Hey guys! i know i havnt been on in forever but im not gone. im at a group home right now and ill talk to you guys if i can. I love you all and ill try to post art if i can. Love yall. heres the number and ext:
310 836 1223 ext 177. ASK FOR IAN! :DDD
Back From Teh Dead XDDDDDDD
Oh my goshez! Im not dead! lol Hi guys whats up? Its Rkade [Ian]! I missed you guys! I got sooooo much to tell you about! I got put in this treatment center called Devereux and its evil! XD Anyway, I miss everyone back home! Hopefully i can go home soon and i can see Lily And Roseanne again! Sorry i havnt been able to update in a while. My life has been supa hectic lately. I woulda updated earlier but i havnt been able to. Ive made abunch of new arti plan to put up when i go home.:) Love you guys. hope to talk to you soon!!!
OMFG HELLLZZZ YEAHHHH
So Im MAJORLY HAPPEH NAO! I got so much to update you guys on!
Ok first off im in LOVE with dubstep! :D
Second thing is im working on a new youtube video for Leave out All The Rest - Linkin Park which will be on my channel here: www.youtube.com/user/dizzybash
Third and most importantly i FINALLY talked to my bestie! He's called meez :D Im so happy ima try ot visit him tomorrow! Hes in FILLMORE! :O
I just stopped in the middle of this journal to talk to him and i can visit him this weekend cuz of the court thing :(
Oh well. Maybe i can use skype. Then i can see him :) OMG i miss him lol Anyways, I get to look for costume parts for my
Son
YAYYYYY!
Ok so my best friend is OK! :D He went into a tranistional living home and is NOT IN JAIL! :D YESH! Im gonna try to call him as soon as i can :D OMG IM SO FUCKEN HAPPY! I cant wait to see him :) OK ill see yall later im tooo happy to type :DDDDDDD
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NYUUUUUUUU I wish you could help you, but theres no way to do that... My life sucks pretty bad too, but not THAT bad. I MISS YOU!
I wish you could help you, but theres no way to do that... My life sucks pretty bad too, but not THAT bad. I MISS YOU!